Today my adorable nephew came to me completely unprovoked, scared. Terrified, scared about death and what happens when you die. On March 31st, when he was 2.5years old my brother placed him into my arms as the EMTs stopped trying to bring his mother back from an overdose. In that moment I promised God and her that I would never fail him. It breaks me inside knowing she will not be here physically to be part of his life. That my brother is in prison because drugs are in reality, even if he says differently more important than his son. Today I held my boy as he calmed. Today I talked about angels and heaven. Tomorrow I will continue to NEVER fail him or his cousins. All my children. Today I might have really pissed off someone with my post. Today I don’t care. Well, in reality I don’t care if I’m ever judged. Because we are all allowed to speak the truth. My FB post….
Amy Sulewski , last week your little man started Kindergarten and T-Ball. He is TRULY an amazing little boy. Your missing out and I need to say I am angry today for your and my brothers choices. Today MY sweet boy asked me about death. Today he was scared. Today I had to have one of the most difficult conversations and it is NOT fair. I WILL PROTECT, LOVE AND TEACH him about what life is. I will be judged. I will be condemned for saying my peace. But I have never given a damn about what people think of my parenting or the way I take care of MY family. I love and miss you so much. But I am so sad and angry still at you both. I don’t know if I will ever get over it. Brooks, Logan, your mom, Jen, your family and I deserved better. We miss you.
American Made Momma 